Love has found me...

Love has found me again.  I didn't think this type of love would ever find me again.  The kind of love that withstands pressure, that gets angry and then forgives, that worries about someone not borne of motherhood, that cheers silently or aloud.  The love that laughs just because.  The love that desires. 

I thought this love was gone for good from my life.  I thought I would find a different kind of love or maybe just a strong 'like'.  But the love that has found me is different than the love I experienced before. 

This love has come about through time, through companionship, through friendship. 

The love that has found me has come through tests...
  Tests of our wills.
  Tests of our value systems.
  Tests of our patience.
  Tests of my faith.

The love that has found me has come through friends and family helping me to understand and accept the differences between men & women - the key here for me was the understanding part.  I still get annoyed at D's quirks, but I no longer take them personally.

The love that has found me has allowed me to depend upon someone other than myself - and THAT FEELS SOOOOOOOO GOOD!   To do everything alone is exhausting.  To be responsible for everything by myself is exhausting.  To not be able to share my fears with anyone who cares about me made my fears magnify unreasonably.  The love that has found me is giving me rest and peace, and clarity.  And for those things I am so very grateful.

This love that has found me is good.  So very good.