And D & I are moving forward nicely together. We live together in happy boredom most days - and some days we are have lots of excitement. Quite frankly, I like the boredom!
Yesterday we were both commenting on how funny life is ... Neither of us thought we would find the love of our life with a person we found on Match.com!
This is the life that I want. It is the life I wanted. It is the life I didn't think I would have again. I am not only content, I am happy! It's been a long time since I would have said that or wrote that comment about my life in general. Oh yes, I've been happy about events in my life over the years... but the desire to have someone I am in love with & is in love with me has always pervaded my psyche. And while I was unhappy for the longest time, eventually I did move to being content with my life. I never dreamed that I would be happy again... not like this! How odd life is...
I was made to be a homemaker... to be a wife & a mother. And while I am not married, I feel like a 'wife' - and of course, I'm a "mom" (better than a "mother"). D is so protective of me & my health... "You should lay down";
"Get off your feet"
"Don't lift that bag of dirt, I'll get it";
"Don't work all night... they are taking advantage of you";
"Be safe driving";
"Be careful - there is ice on the road" (I have NO CLUE where he saw ice!)
"Aren't you going to take your coat - it's ___ degrees outside" (he's in love with the weather channel! LOL)
and lately... "I know you are going to be hot, so I'll just get some thermals to sleep in" (when he's thinking about my perpetual hot flashes!
I could go on and on...
While we are like most couples & have our ups and downs, he does treat me - most days - like I am important... Something that by the end of my marriage was gone... it was apparent to S that I was NOT important. So the fact that D makes an effort to show me how important I am to him makes me feel warm all over.
He has moved from doing only things where he feels comfortable, to doing things because they are important to me. We went to J's aunt's for Thanksgiving & other than complaining a little about the food, he had a good time. He fit in nicely. He laughed & talked about football (THANK GOD FOR FOOTBALL!) and beamed with pride when folks talked about how good my candied sweet potatoes tasted!
He's started talking about marriage... says he wants to marry me. He says he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I told him I wanted a ring (too tacky? - LOL). Not because I want to show off (okay, maybe a little bit!). But really, he is private to an almost secretive bent - and it does bother me. I want him to shout to the rooftops that he loves me. I want him to tell every friend on his face book page (LOL). The insecurity inside of me, needs him to show the world that he loves me. A ring on my finger would say "I love her & she is mine"... Those 7 words represented by a ring would 'seal the deal' for me.
A ring isn't in the financial cards right now, but will be soon... We went to look at them a few weeks ago - at HIS urging, so I know he's thinking about it.
Yup, I'm HAPPY to be IMPORTANT to him!
Yesterday we were both commenting on how funny life is ... Neither of us thought we would find the love of our life with a person we found on Match.com!
This is the life that I want. It is the life I wanted. It is the life I didn't think I would have again. I am not only content, I am happy! It's been a long time since I would have said that or wrote that comment about my life in general. Oh yes, I've been happy about events in my life over the years... but the desire to have someone I am in love with & is in love with me has always pervaded my psyche. And while I was unhappy for the longest time, eventually I did move to being content with my life. I never dreamed that I would be happy again... not like this! How odd life is...
I was made to be a homemaker... to be a wife & a mother. And while I am not married, I feel like a 'wife' - and of course, I'm a "mom" (better than a "mother"). D is so protective of me & my health... "You should lay down";
"Get off your feet"
"Don't lift that bag of dirt, I'll get it";
"Don't work all night... they are taking advantage of you";
"Be safe driving";
"Be careful - there is ice on the road" (I have NO CLUE where he saw ice!)
"Aren't you going to take your coat - it's ___ degrees outside" (he's in love with the weather channel! LOL)
and lately... "I know you are going to be hot, so I'll just get some thermals to sleep in" (when he's thinking about my perpetual hot flashes!
I could go on and on...
While we are like most couples & have our ups and downs, he does treat me - most days - like I am important... Something that by the end of my marriage was gone... it was apparent to S that I was NOT important. So the fact that D makes an effort to show me how important I am to him makes me feel warm all over.
He has moved from doing only things where he feels comfortable, to doing things because they are important to me. We went to J's aunt's for Thanksgiving & other than complaining a little about the food, he had a good time. He fit in nicely. He laughed & talked about football (THANK GOD FOR FOOTBALL!) and beamed with pride when folks talked about how good my candied sweet potatoes tasted!
He's started talking about marriage... says he wants to marry me. He says he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I told him I wanted a ring (too tacky? - LOL). Not because I want to show off (okay, maybe a little bit!). But really, he is private to an almost secretive bent - and it does bother me. I want him to shout to the rooftops that he loves me. I want him to tell every friend on his face book page (LOL). The insecurity inside of me, needs him to show the world that he loves me. A ring on my finger would say "I love her & she is mine"... Those 7 words represented by a ring would 'seal the deal' for me.
A ring isn't in the financial cards right now, but will be soon... We went to look at them a few weeks ago - at HIS urging, so I know he's thinking about it.
Yup, I'm HAPPY to be IMPORTANT to him!
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