One New Resolution for 2010

I'm here.  In 2010.  When I was a kid hearing about 2001 Space Odyssey, I remember thinking that I would never live to see that date because it was such a long ways away.  Yet, here I am in 2010.  Here we all are.

And it is time for resolutions.  Every year I make the usual resolutions - loose weight, eat better, exercise, get promoted at work (i.e. make more money), save for hard wood floors, save for my trip to Egypt.  This year I have another resolution I'll add. 

I still want to be physically healthier.  I not only want to be promoted, I deserve to be promoted after my 2009 year of reaching the challenges put in front of me!  I still want to save for my floors and for Egypt - but I've learned to keep my coins in a jar and just keep adding to it & not cash it in, since I still can't get the $200 'back' that I cashed in... So what's different?  I want to fall in love with someone who is in love with me. 

Yes, that is my resolution for 2010.  I want to be in love every day.  I want the feeling in the song I'd Rather by Luther Vandross.  I want to love that person through good times and bad times.  Right now, I'd like that person to be D, but I'm not there yet.  Time may move us in that direction... who knows.  But if it doesn't, I will end this relationship and look for another because I want to be in love. 

I want the feeling of contentment that comes from knowing the person you care for most in your life cares for you as well.  I want the feeling of ordinariness that comes from living with someone day in and day out.  I want the feeling of being able to say whatever I want (within reason) and not worry that we might 'break up'.  I want the feeling of being safe in his arms.  I want to be able to end a day's work & have a comforting hug - where I can let go & not be the boss.  I want to be able to tell him how great he is doing at _____ (when he's doing great) and to encourage him when things are not going well and tell him to 'suck it up' when he is making bad choices - all without repercussion, because he'll know I love him.  I want to know that he will be there at my side until we leave this earth, at my side to laugh, cry & everything in-between. 

Yes, I want to be in love in 2010.

Lady Bug