Am I Still Dieting?

It was a busy day at work. Phones ringing, plenty of meetings. Lots of activity. For the entire morning, I was 'heads down' in work and focused. Then at 12:45 as I was finishing up a meeting, my cell phone rang. I looked down & whose name did I see but D's. Was my diet over?

I answered, cautiously. He was at lunch & thought he would call me "just to talk". We talked for what became my lunch hour. And while it was nice to talk to him, I listened intently to his words - with my head, not my heart. He was excited about something at his job & wanted to share. I was happy to listen, and I did - listen. As he was talking about what he would be doing in the near future, I listened to see if any of his plans included me. Not many of them included me.

While we made plans to see one another in a few weeks for an event, he informed me that he was going to be attending football parties every Sunday during football season. And he didn't invite me to attend these parties with him. So in my mind, I'm thinking "hmmm so on Saturday, after work he will come here and we'll do the movies or something & since it's after work, he won't be here in time to do a play or go to a museum, or even go to the park for a walk - which would be okay if we could do some of those things on Sunday - but on Sunday, he'll get up and leave pretty much immediately for the 'football party'... Hmmm, I'm not liking this. When I asked when this started, he said that his friends had asked him to attend. That it was a "good way of meeting people".

I was taken aback - didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything.

And now, I'm just confused - no, not confused, hurt - but just a bit.

So I've decided that I probably need to share my thoughts with him before I go too much further. I know that this is what I would tell my friends to do... I could just hear me "Why in God's name do you think he can read your mind! You are borrowing trouble. For heavens sake, you can do this! Just tell him how you feel." I give really good advice - taking it, well, I'm not so good at that.

And I know this. I also know that I am not good at taking chances on saying something that might result in a negative reaction. Avoidance - it's one of those skills I learned over the past 21 years - and by now, I have this skill perfected!

So now I write, instead of speak... but I do realize that I have to speak... just not sure what to say!


An Uncharacteristic Lady Bug