I've been on the D-Diet for some time.  The time away has been good... I can think more clearly now.  So I'm okay with being on the D-Diet now and eventually being on a D-Fast. 

These past days have given me time to look realistically about who I am,who D is and the differences between the two of us.  We are most definitely opposites, and while years ago, I found that very attractive (after all the only love of my life could be described as very different than me), today I see that differnce as temporary fun. 

I love the differences between the genders, between cultures.  I love the exciting thought provoking conversation that occurs when divergent points of view are set side by side.  But exciting can give way to exhausting.  And at this point in my life I am looking for more peacefulness, for rest.

There is no argument that my life has been difficult over the past 20+ years.  When I look back at it, I sometimes wonder how I survived.  To survive I pushed myself to limits I didn't know existed.  I pushed my wants and needs to the back burner, I focused on what 'absolutely had to be done' and that rarely, if ever, included what I desired.

So now, my life needs to be easy - or as easy as it can be.  And while having fun with my opposite is, well, fun, it won't make for a long relationship.  I want lasting fun...

Lady Bug