Amazing what a conversation with a Polly Anna can do for you...

So here I am... D and I talked again & this time the outcome was different.  The difference was my demeanor.  Instead of confrontational ("I've had about enough of this sh~~"), I stated my case calmly & listened to him.  What I heard was a man in pain.  What I told him was that I could not continue to live in "Negative City" - that it was draining for me...

And we talked about 'us' and 'this relationship' - about where it is going & we agreed that we don't know.  We threw ourselves together and while the result hasn't been perfect, it could be worse (by now, we could be enemies!)

So what was the change?  The change was a conversation with my friend M.  That woman is the voice of reason - albeit a Polly Anna voice - but the voice of reason, just the same.  She is kind & her heart is good & more importantly, she is realistic!  She brought me down from wanting 'heaven' in a relationship to 'living on this good earth'.  She reminded me of how I was a few years ago - yearning for someone to share my life with & while she's all for moving forward with or without D, her words force me to be more objective - to look at this situation with my mind and my heart.  And so, things are a bit easier...

Who would have known that I would have to come to OH and live here for 15 years or so all so I could meet one Polly Anna that I can truly call a friend!  God has such a funny sense of humor!

Lady Bug