The Day Is Not Far Off...

Have you ever seen Fiddler on the Roof?  The scene where they sing Do You Love Me?  Well, I've been thinking about that song.  And I've wondered, who am I in the scene --- Tevia asking if she loves him or Golde telling him that for 25 years she has taken care of him, bore his children, & after consideration she replies that she supposes she loves him.  They end the song saying "after 25 years, it doesn't matter, but it's nice to know. 

This song makes me think of all the things that D does for me around the house, all the things he does easily but that I hate to do.  I think of the things I do for him - without being asked.   

So over the last few days as I've been trying to figure out if I love D, this song gives me pause.  Perhaps the things we do for one another show love from both of us, for both of us.

One of my resolutions this year was that I was going to 'fall in love'... I think I am almost there.  I think that the person I am suppose to fall in love with is standing in front of me, watching TV with surround sound on my deck (sorry neighbors), is fussing about neatness, is vacuuming the house daily, is trying to find a better job so he can contribute more, really wants to be a pilot but settles for piloting a remote control plane.  He wants me emotionally, physically.  He hugs me a night, while I am sleeping - drawing me to him reminding me that he is right there for me.  This is the man that I am falling in love with... And while I am not there today, I think the day is not far off.