My world has changed over the past 2 years. Two years ago I was single and alone, today I am still single, but not alone.
I wanted to find someone to share my life with. I had a plan. First, I was going to date, then eventually, I was going to meet Mr. Right, with the right job, with the right age children (grown,over 22 & out of college children), no longer in love with his ex, who owns his own car & home, who has 'reasonable debt' (whatever that means), who has similar education as me, (or more) and who lives close to me (at least in reasonable driving distance).
So, hmmm, two years have gone by & I dated and I did meet someone, D - Mr. Right Now. When I met him I thought he was a lot of fun - but never thought he was Mr. Right because:
1- he makes considerable less money than me.
2 - his child was 12
3 - the way he spoke about his ex led me to believe he was not over her yet.
4 - he did/does own his own car.
5 - he didn't / doesn't own his own home.
6 - he does not have reasonable debt.
7 - he does not have similar education as me
8 - lived 2.5 hours away
Now - it is 2 years later & I think I'm in love. My Mr. Right Now has become my Mr. Right. He still doesn't meet all my criteria for Mr. Right. I am surprised at myself every day for going down this path. Part of me - the part who loves exploring the differences in life, in people, in circumstances - thinks this is alright. I'm not concerned about money, status, homes or cars. I am enjoying having someone in my life that cares for me, that can make me laugh & who will care for me when I am ill. The part of me that is cautious about everyone I meet, is concerned about his debt (not terribly unreasonable, but it's debt that I worry about him having the ability to repay), his child, and his job (he has taken a severe pay cut as a result of the economy). This part of me is scared, really scared of being involved with someone who has so much to gain by misleading me.
I don't have a gut feeling that he is bad or that this situation is bad, so for now I move forward, cautiously, very cautiously.
Hmmmm....
Silver Lining
11 years ago
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